the naked truth

webname» ∂a∂™
location» UK
age» mid 30’s
gender» male
me» tortured romantic; attention seeking loner; uncontrollable perfectionist; elusive clown; miss-understood helper;  patient fool
the real me» deeply spiritual; randomly impulsive; annoyingly analytical; struggling striver; totally addicted to porn
goals» be content; love God; be faithful; reject sensationalism; trust Jesus; be real
fantasies» get as much sex with as many women as possible; go from ecstasy to euphoria; escape from this world; escape from my hurt
my prayer» to have these chains of addiction that shackle me down broken for good; to be realised from a habitual, soul crushing life pattern; to be free once again and serve in the way I should

[just to add — thanks goodness fantasies don't come true!!!!!!]